This weekend was tough. Talk about feeling inadequate!
The day before church day, my husband told me that I would not have a translator for children's class. Stress washed over me like a raging river. I had my class all prepared and planned out based on having a translator. "I can't do this!"
I seem to feel that way a lot. "I can't do this!" Sometimes as a mom I feel the weight and magnitude of the responsibility of parenting. Some days I feel helpless and insufficient. Some days I question what I am doing. Some days I have a melt down. I feel like a loser mom. "I can't do this!"
I remember when we moved here. It took a few months, but culture shock set in. Once it did I was overwhelmed. I remember standing at the sink washing dishes in freezing water, feeling chilled to the bone because we don't have a heated home, and feeling isolated because of language barrier. I broke down in tears. "I can't do this!"
You know what God did? He didn't say, "Yes, you can. You are amazing and gifted!" Nor did He say, "Hang in there and have some determination!"
When I said, "I can't do this," God said, "No, no you cannot... but I can."
Psalm 23:1 "The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want."
I shall not want. It means I shall lack nothing. It's easy to apply this to physical provision, but it goes beyond that. Yes, God supplies food, shelter, clothes, and other physical needs, but our Shepherd supplies so much more.
I can't parent these kids! And God says, "No, no you cannot, but I can. Follow me."
I can't teach this class! "No, no you can't... but I can. Follow my lead."
I can't live here! I can't reach these people! I can't play the piano or minister to the ladies or learn this language! No, I can't, but He can through me if I follow His lead. He is my Shepherd, and anywhere He leads He will also provide what is needed.
It's easy to believe "the LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want" when it comes to our daily physical needs, but what about the needs we have to accomplish what He has called us to do?
How can I parent these children? Follow the Shepherd.
How can I teach this children's class? Follow the Shepherd.
How can I ______________________?
Follow the Shepherd. You will not lack anything!
1 Thessalonians 5:24 "Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it."