Have you ever laid awake at night pondering a trial?
Has sleep ever evaded you because you were spending time doing a heart inspection?
Throughout my life as a parent, I have faced this many times. Now that I have a child out on his own thousands of miles away, I have done this more than ever. Parenting a child who is transitioning into adulthood is difficult enough, but doing it from a different continent is even tougher! I am not there with him to intervene when he is in trouble or if he makes a bad decision. I can't just hop on a plane and handle situations. I can't sit down with him face-to-face and help him make right decisions. And when he messes up? When things don't go the way I hoped? Yes, sometimes I lie on my bed wide awake pondering the trial and inspecting my own heart.
David did the same thing as he faced his trials.
Psalm 17:3 "Thou hast proved mine heart; thou hast visited me in the night; thou hast tried me, and shalt find nothing; I am purposed that my mouth shall not transgress."
He was facing a dark time, and yet he knew that God was using this trial to prove him, to try him, to refine him. As sleep escaped him, he laid on his bed searching his own heart. God visited with him in the night and helped in the inspection.
God searches the heart, and His search is much more thorough than ours. Our hearts are deceptive and can fool us, but our hearts cannot fool God. As God tried David's heart and as David was party to the inspection process, David said his conscience was clear. This trial was not because of sin, and neither had he sinned because of the trial. But there was one area David knew was a temptation. It was a temptation to sin with his lips. With that in mind, David purposed firmly in his heart and mind that he would not cross that line. He would not give in to the temptation to complain. He would not allow his mouth to speak foolishly. He would not slander his enemy or charge God with being unjust in sending the trial. He had purposed that his mouth would not transgress throughout the trial.
Are you facing a trial?
- Don't be afraid to inspect your heart to see if this trial was caused by sin in your life or to see if you have sinned in how you are dealing with the trial.
- Submit to God's inspection of your heart and be ready to repent if He points out things in your heart that are not right with Him.
- Embrace the trial knowing that God uses the fires of trials to prove us and refine us for His glory.
- Purpose in your heart not to give in to transgressing with your mouth through complaining, through speaking sinfully to others or about others, or through sinful accusations against God.